The Matrix,

Resolutions.
sorry, lame joke

From 2009:
1. Consume nothing but water for 4 days. In January.
Didn't do it. The guilt had me recording my meals for months at a time, though. That's.. Jan 15 - Apr 24 and a briefer Sep 5 to Nov 20. And the only day where I actually did consume nothing but water was April 24th.

2. Obtain at least two As somewhere. Anywhere.
Math, 2.4km run.

5. (and this is from resolutions 2007..) To print out a Multiplication table to the 100s, and an Exponentiation table to the 12s.
Nope. Still nope! >:o

6. More than 1000 in the bank by March. Need to save, man.
Success.

Time for 2010.
1: B-standard for H2 Economics by July.

2: Be in the comfort zone for all subjects by mid-June.

3: Start running regularly again.

4: Be aquaintanced with at least 4 juniors that are non-judo.

5: As for As.

6: Secure my choice of path beyond JC.
Engineering? Architecture? Product design? Science? Writing? Math? Need to keep my mind open lest I find something I didn't know I wanted to do.

7: Read a German book with full comprehension.

8: Read a Mandarin book beyond the primary 3 level with full comprehension.

Kay, that's all for now.
Twenty-Ten, ahoy.

(I realise that if you add up all the digits of 2010, it's another instance of the number 3 in my life. Huzzah.)

-Zan

Booouff

Like a tether.
Bringin' ya back.
Down.
To the world again.
Face down,
nose down
to the grindstone
Go.

-Zan

Play

Imagine being cursed with eternal life, eternal wakefulness and eternal immobility.
Like being a rock, but with a mind. (Or soul?)

If you had eyes to look at something, I figure they'd be ignored eventually. You can only look at something so long before disacknowledging (goodness this is an ugly word) it completely.
Same for smell. For taste. Hearing. Touch, even. All washed away in the infinity of your mind.

But what would you do?
What could you do?

Stuck with your head forever.

Imagine?

-Zan

A Series of Good Throws.

My gentle-sloping ascent. Ascension.

Odd idea: Imagine an immortal humanity. The problem with that would naturally be.. overpopulation. So such humans would need to have their ability to reproduce taken from them, if the planet wishes to survive. But then what? The same family of humans on Earth would stay there indefinitely? How about..
nature only allowing humankind to reproduce (to make new people) once they've done something. Fulfilled a certain quota for nature before they can peacefully pass on their genes and leave Earth themselves.
Still not sure what I wanna make that, though. True love, ala Groundhogs Day? Or... meeting a certain number of people from the rest of the population? Bla.

First post of December.

Kay, kay Vietnam.
Uh, Vietnam was pretty awesome. Serene dearth of people on the streets of Vung tau, and there was something about Ho Chih Minh that made me happy. I'm not sure what. Nice place.
Fun trip with the relatives overall. :D

Avatar was fantastic. Beautiful designs for the flora and fauna. And a good experiment for the part of my brain that practices empathy, as I told S. Lots of polar characters' shoes to put yourself in. Simple story, but well presented.

Christmas. I wish I went out or something! Pretty mundane xmas this year.

It says I typed this on the 15th, but I really did this in parts. So it's my post for the whole of December, sort've. So the lower down the text, the later I typed it.

I just want a room. A silent room. With blank, metal walls and a wooden table and chair. and all my notes and questions and assignments for all my subjects. And for me to just stay there for like.. 3 days. No food, just water. And derive what knowledge I can from all those papers in those 3 days. Then leave the room, a nd continue on from there.
I await the day that knowledge can be downloaded into our brains, including practical knowledge. School would be more engaging. Insert sigh here.

Ha, I remember when I typed 'My gentle-sloping ascent'. Hee.

What do you do when you can do everything?
It's time to reel in that empty hook, throw the line back into the waters. If I was typing the blogpost now, it would have the title "Keep Fishing."

Published 10:55 pm, December 29th, 2009.

-Zan

It rained today.

Morning:












The way back:













Mind you, it was still raining when I took that picture. Wetting-my-hoodie for the win.
While sitting at the taxi stand waiting for it to subside (in vain), I thought it'd be neat to have hotels (at least, the really really exclusive, up-scale ones) keep a gigantic room that was constantly (artificially) raining inside.
Or, the world's largest fountain. That happens to be fashioned into the shape of a room.
It would have in it different settings to experience the rain in - a forest, the beach, the city, etc.

And no shoes allowed.

-Zan

f(15.11.09) = 97

From Wikipedia.

Denarian 10 to 19
Vicenarian 20 to 29
Tricenarian 30 to 39
Quadragenarian 40 to 49
Quinquagenarian 50 to 59
Sexagenarian 60 to 69
Septuagenarian 70 to 79
Octogenarian 80 to 89
Nonagenarian 90 to 99
Centenarian 100 to 109
Supercentenarian 110 and older

I personally use Level 1, Level 2, etc. Buh.

I wonder if I should be worrying about the decreasing length of my posts. The blog is following the same pattern of most of my attempted diaries - Initially long entries that simplify and shorten over time.
Then again, it may be.. seasonal? I'll wait for the day that I'm really bored+free to plot myself a graph of Blogpost length vs Time.

'Till then!

-Zan

Oh, I don't know.

It's over! Will now post whatever comes to mind.

Damn the dry skin on my face. At least it's healing.
OP IS OVER. PW IS OVER. FOREVER. ISH.
The day:
-wake
-school
-watch group 1
-present
-watch group 3
-go canteen and not eat
-going to go home but met up with classmates instead
-Mcdonalds. Forgive me.
-J8. Buy tickets to 2012.
- omg point form!
-walk around. Popular. Music shop. NTUC.
-theatre.
-epic, epic graphics.
-disperse.
home.

Enter judo. And increased library-ing.
Waitrose cereal, anyone?

-Zan

Johnny Walker: Keep ____ing.

Censorship brings out the worst in people's minds, where necessary or unnecessary.

The rules:
-Don't stop walking for 2 hours.
-Only stop to stop a thing that stops your walk.

Sure enough, it started drizzling.
Then raining.
Then lightning-ing.
But I made it, so nyaa.

HALLOWEEN IS HERE comes Christmas.

-Zan

Denk' an Dich und lass Du gehen

Sidetrekkin':

What am I doing/saying/being now that future me will look at and go ''Gah, GAH, what a TARD I was. AUGH.'' ?
I find recordings of my past self grueling to the ego.
Ah well. Live and learn, all that.

-Zan

You're chubbing.

NYJC: H2 Physics Promo Ans ready for download in Litespeed Workbin.

Bastards. This makes me want to pee. Does.

Do you think, perhaps, that an added hour (or 3) to each exam duration would greatly boost the scores of Singapore's students? Or a 'leave when you are done' rule, perhaps? And those that go beyond 5 hours, fail. Because nobody's supposed to take that long in the workforce. Save for, maybe, the dlsyexic.

Intention: About 5 hours to spend in Jurong east mrt. 2 hours designated to contemplating the EoM.
Reality: 5 hours of finding and reading books, about 30 minutes on the train back thinking about EoM. With, I am proud to say, very satisfying results.

-Zan

Hello Sunshine

Yeah, it's probably over.
You know you are (probably) post-sick when the following do not continue.

-Every time you spit, coloured or not, the spit beholds consistency.
-You are greatly aware of the switch your body does between nostrils for inhalation.
-Random occurrences of sweat
-Fantastic weather sucks

Random thoughts about how we are like a resistor when we shower; water as the 'current' from hose to drain. Buh.

Thinking of the awesomeness of making several clones that are cloned a year apart each.
You'd have
Jack at year 1 beside
Jack at year 2 beside
Jack at year 3 beside..
et cetera.
Would be eerie but still kinda cool. To see the row of fellows beside you. Bizarre mirrors into your body's past.

-Zan

Bleaaargh.

Despite my general indifference to the practice of abortions, this made me cringe a bit.

I guess I'll need to start making stands about things, sooner or later. The usual I-Don't-Knows and Haven't-Thought-About-Its are getting embarrassing.
Yes, change is a constant and how I think at one point may not be the same after a week, year, month or day. But at least have something to switch. Fence sitting would reduce how many times I may rip myself away from one stand to take on another, I opine. I'd limit my lessons.
Shit, I'm 18.

At times sit like rock
Then as water, seek and spread
Shape and form as mud

-Zan

Mr Blue Sky

Sweaty, stinky shirt this morning. And what a morning, it's finally not so damn damp. I think the cold is making its exit at last! Phlegm-coughs are less frequent, the headache is down to a whisper. The runny nose is resting. As such I'm not snotting as much. Now, to enjoy the highs of post-runny-nose sickness. Squee.
Phlegming would be pissed.

Incidentally, I am discovering S's early fascination with the game Pandemic. (Pandemic 2, specifically.) Much patience is needed.

Random Occurrences:

+ As discovered last night, a plate with a slightly dried layer of chicken-chop gravy looks like an H-Bomb attack when placed under a running tap of water.

+ Today I discover humor in the name 'Iron Shirt'. From Shaolin soccer. Mumblemumble.

+ I also realise that this is the year I find the phrase "logical conclusion" being used more often than ever. Or at all, actually. Thank you anti-genetic-research literature. And anti-atheistic writings too.

+ My hair, from rat fur, is entering spiky tennisball mode. One rejoices.

kdone.

I'd like to point out the following phrase.
"everything happens for a reason".
People often use this to comfort, to console, as a calming explanation for something annoying. Or even devastating.
What I'd like to say is that 'a reason' does not necessarily mean that there was a good reason behind the act/event. Or a pleasing one. Or an acceptable one. (Like skipping class due to laziness. Also, the holocaust.)
Also note that the reasons in question are not always intentional. (eg "The vase was right behind the door!")

GOVERNMENT OF MADAGASCAR SHUTS DOWN SHIPYARDS TO PREVENT INFECTION
:(
oh, hurry it up...

-Zan

Fleming Would be Pissed

Oddthought. Do you think our lives would function normally if our thumbs were on the other end of our palms? (i.e. beside the pinkie.)
I imagine many tools and objects would have to be interestingly oddly-designed. (Would it be easier to lift huge boxes?) (or scratch your back?) (how would you hold a pencil?)

What does white noise smell like?

-Zan

Facebook

traverse and seek, find the names
many true but others changed
different faces, what a shame
inside still the same?

but sometimes I forget the self
perception had benumbed
turn my eyes around and ask:
what have you become?



-Zan

Termini

My inherent reluctance to turn 18 years of age has yet to present itself.
I will wait.

Postmortem: GP
Now that I think of it, I figure my answers were a bit disorganised. Ideas were presented, but were they clear? For some reason I fear more for the compre answers than for summary and AQ. Brr.
(I realise it's the end of the week. Felt more like a Monday, really. It's odd recalling that I went to school just a few days ago.) (Wait, it's promos already?)

Onwards.

ECONS 2 (time limits and memory will kill you)
BIOLOGY (memory will kill you)
-
PHYS 3 (not knowing will kill you)
MATH (careless mistakes, time limits and not knowing will kill you)
CLB1
CLB2
CLB (LC) (not recognising words will kill you)
-
-
ECONS 1 (not knowing will kill you)
PHYS 1 (careless mistakes will kill you)
PHYS 2 (careless mistakes will kill you)

In the summer grass is dying
In the winter grass is dying
Sit here and seek spring

-Zan

Obligatory Post

Bzzzt.
















ears and a forehead, two bits

Nae man can tether time or tide

-Zan

Point Form

Frangipani deathstench returns! Loveleh.
Hair is almost at 100% earhiding stage. Before&After pictures will be made. In five days.
Ms Hazel is Here
I woz thinking about the usefulness of a potential presentation tool: A lazer pointer that would serve as a cursor on the projected screen. Moving it around the projection would move the cursor arrow as long as the lazer is turned on and pointed at the image. One would click/rightclick with buttons that are on the lazer. Perhaps the sensitivity of the cursor could be reduced to prevent amplified movements of the lazer pointer (as a result of a tiny movement of the wrist) going out of control.
I FINALLY KILLED THE ROOM ROACH. TRIUMPH. Finally. Urgh.

These pictures remind me of this picture



-Zan

Random Ramble. Ings.

Red bean snacks are win.
refrigerated-then-left-to-thaw-in-a-plastic-bag-before-eaten red bean snacks are very, very fail.

see also: diarrhea

When you are doing something that will involve the alteration of somebody's conditions, it helps to heighten your approval ratings when you ASK FIRST.
:< @ mom
Also, It's been a while. This is the 174th day. 9 days more and it'll have been a whole half year (in terms of months) that I've had my hair uncut.
(omg, 1+7+4 = 12! And 1+2 = 3! And 9 is 3 squared! I should care somehow!)


Oh, Time. There you go. Again. Running away.
Or rather, being pushed away. Displaced.
By a force mysterious. Something, or someone.
Do come back.
Be mine again.


SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT THAT LAST WORD MEANS YET, BUT I'LL LOOK IT UP K?


-Zan

Momentary Diversion

Today is the first time I've ever seen/recognised a blind fellow in the mrt. Swinging his cane at the sensory dots, no less.

ANOTHER DUMB IDEA: A world covered in mechanical, vertical plates. Shaped like the sections made when one cuts an orange with vertical slices. There would be 1440 plates in total, one for each minute of the day (about 28km across the middle). The plates would all rotate at the same speed as the Earth but in the opposite direction. Hence, each plate would be 'frozen' in a specific 'time' of the day. (i.e. one would travel halfway round the Earth to get from the 1pm plate to the 1am plate.)
Or, to be simple, an Earth where one side perpetually faces the sun.
People would choose which time of the day they'd prefer to live in during the long term. The intensity of light would no longer affect the ability of one to sleep. (Perhaps there would exist no sleep altogether.)
If humans decided they'd all want to be living in the sunlight, the 'dark side' of this Earth would be free to grow wildlife undisturbed. Perhaps odd flora and fauna would somehow evolve without the need for sunlight. Maybe firefly-type biology would become extremely commonplace.

Today two butterflies flew past me like so.






















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-Zan